Memorial Day Weekend

Yesterday was a fun day-my days are always fun when it involves me going to Atlanta to watch the Braves. Coming off two great starts against the Toronto Blue Jays-it was time for the Braves to hopefully sweep them right out of Atlanta. I got up super early, and met a friend in Statesboro around 5:45 that morning. I know that sounds pretty early, but getting there early means autographs. We arrived in Atlanta at 9:00am. After riding around the city, it was time to try to go get some autographs. It took me about 30 minutes to realize that our chances were slim to none because it was "get-away day" (I totally let that slip my mind lol). Overall, the game was great. Luckily the rain held off, and I actually got a bit sunburned. My seats were great too, by the way. We were 12 rows up in section 117, which is right beside the Braves dugout (close enough that I could have caught a ball tossed my way from a player-although, I didn't get one). The Braves ended up getting that sweep I was hoping for winning by a whooping 10-2! :)

Today marks one month that my brother and his family has been gone. Shoot-time flies! I've started letting little things get the best of me that I probably shouldn't. I get aggravated because I never get to talk to them. They end up calling my house when I'm not around for some reason-bad timing perhaps?! And then I have to hear about everything from my mom-when I would rather hear it from them. It bothers me how when I do get to talk to them my brother and April seem to yawn in conversation. Is that a sign of "I don't want to talk anymore" or "I'm ready to get off this phone?" I guess that will remain a mystery to me.

Well, it's indeed Memorial Day and I have no plans at all. This morning I watched my new movie Nights in Rodanthe, which was a pretty good movie-I can't wait to read the book when it comes. I'm starting a collection of Nicholas Sparks books. I've grown to love his work, and have found a new addiction since JT and Jordan moved away-reading. It is a great hobby and it helps take my mind off things-I read half of A Bend in the Road in one day, so you can imagine just how good it is.

Its a soggy-fun day!

Today was a typical Saturday for me. I got up same time as always, got ready, and headed into work. We were actually pretty busy today, which was nice because it helps make the day go by faster. Instead of getting off, coming straight home, and doing absolutely nothing-I met up with my friend Christy at her house and we hung out for about four hours tonight, which was a good day to do so. Although it was raining-we both had a good time catching up, and reminiscing about the good 'ole days. She is actually about to have her first baby, a girl, and she is due June 6th. It's exciting to see your friends you grew up with happy and starting their family-maybe one day I'll join in on that parade.:)

Next Friday, my friend Amanda and I are going to Savannah for a campus tour of Armstrong. I really don't care to go on this campus tour, but, for moral support, I'll go with her. I'm actually hoping that I'll be able to get advised by someone, so I can go ahead and register for classes. I still haven't decided if I want to go this summer, or just wait until the fall. She and I also plan to be roommates, and move into an apartment over there. We're both new at this, and we're ready to leave the nest. It'll be a great experience for us both. Tough the commute is closer for me-I still want to move over there. I'm just a bit skeptical about quitting my job, or maybe transferring to one of the stores in Savannah.

For those that read my blog, y'all are probably starting to wonder when I'm going to get it together... hopefully, after some decisions are made, whether I like them or not, life might start taking me in the right direction (and not always in circles-which appears to be the theme of my life right now).

My thoughts

Now that I feel like my world has been turned upside down-I find myself writing less and less on here. The transaction and changing of routines have been quiet a dowse for me. Days like today, when I'm off from work and school, I would normally spend the majority of my time at my brothers house. Now that the family is gone-I've been very lonely. Times like this make me sit back and think. I think about all the times where I used to enjoy something we all call "life." I'm not saying that I don't have a "life," don't get me wrong, but the "life" I'm familiar with no longer exists. With that fact, I find myself wishing I could go back in time and erase some things that happened three years ago, such as the lose memories with me and my gang from high school. I miss those days more and more each day! We were a tight group, and I honestly believe that if I didn't let my emotions get the best of me at that point in time-things would be differently now. Luckily for me, I'm beginning the process that I'm going to call "recovery mode." I stopped by the Berry Patch today looking to buy a wallet, but secretly, I stopped there just to catch up with an old best friend of mine (not knowing that she would actually be at work). We ended up talking for a good twenty minutes before she realized that she'd better get back to work. They didn't have what I wanted so I walked out empty-handed, but not so much empty-handed if you know what I mean.

Today I purchased my airfare ticket! I'm so excited to have have past me... now I can't wait for June 20th to get here. My trip to Ontario will more than likely be boring, but I'm sure JT and Jordan will make me think otherwise when the time arises.

It's been an entire week since my brother and his family moved to Ontario, Canada. It's quiet depressing, if you ask me. This whole transaction has been extremely hard on me. No offense to my brother and sister-in-law, but I miss my JT and Jordan more than ANYTHING and ANYONE in this world-all I want is for them to be back at home with me in Georgia! I actually talked with both JT and Jordan on the phone Wednesday. I was VERY excited, I may add! JT was more into watching his cartoons, but Jordan on the other hand, she talked my ears off.:) At one point she asked me, "can I come to your house?" As you can imagine those words shattered my heart, and I began to tear up-the fact of reality is, it's not so simple anymore for me to just walk into my backyard to get her when she wants me to. :'( Why did this have to happen?

Despite all of my heartache, I'm actually graduating next Friday from Waycross College. The degree in itself isn't all that important, but its a stepping stone for me to get the one that does matter. I decided that I will not be walking across that stage because graduation just wouldn't be the same without my brother there to see me, so I'll be getting my diploma via mail. I have also decided that I am going to double major in Business Administration as well as Interior Design. Hopefully something works out for me, and I can get out of Georgia and move on with my life (hint: move closer to my JT and Jordan).